It’s something that is so difficult for me to develop. It takes time, experience, mistakes to be taken, second chances, third chances, a lifetime of chances to be given. It also takes prayer and lots and lots of love.
My trust has been tested many many times. Over and over again. Nonstop. To this day. I still have problems with trust. So with the slightest lack of affirmation, denial of wrong doings, or hidden truths, I will be set back. I will lose trust in another person. It will take time to get it back. For you to be trustworthy again, it will take effort on your part.
Often we look for a simple explanation, apology or just to be heard and understood. If these are not met then how can you trust that person again?
It all comes down to this – love. Genuine love. Genuine feelings of unconditional love for another. If you truly love one another it will be easy to provide an apology, allow them to be heard, affirm their value to you, be open and honest of all things. Empathize. Forgive. Treat them as you want to be treated.
In my life, I’ve seen and realized the most difficult of all, apologize. Apologize if you have hurt their feelings. Recognize your mistake and apologize. You may think you did nothing wrong, but in their eyes, you did, and it hurt, and they may feel betrayed and may no longer trust you. But sometimes a simple recognition of what you did and apologizing for it shows how much they are of value to you. Putting your own ego aside. From there, trust can rebuild and bonds become stronger.
But if we don’t humble ourselves, admit to wrongdoing, acknowledge that we in fact can hurt someone else’s feelings, because we are not perfect, it has the potential of destroying the relationship. Genuine love, unconditionally loving one another will restore these broken ties but it takes work and effort if we don’t take the first step with empathy and humbleness.
On the other end of the equation is forgiveness. We are all so prideful that we may never apologize because in our eyes we can never do wrong. It’s so important to be humble, acknowledge our mistakes and grow from them to become a better human being. With apology and forgiveness there is room for more love. Forgiving one another and also, forgiving yourself.
If I cannot forgive myself for my own human mistakes, then it would be difficult to forgive or accept another person’s. We, as women, tend to be so hard on ourselves. We expect more from ourselves, forgetting that we can only do or take so much. We have limits. This is ok.. to have limits. To say no. To walk away. To put ourselves first. To be forgiving. And realize that other’s need this too.
With forgiveness and unconditional love of self and others, trusting would be much easier no? Actually, no. There are so many other factors and elements that influence our ability to trust. Like past experiences, childhood, betrayals, relationships, blahblahblah this can go on and on and on…
But if we keep faith, have love, light heart and laughter, maybe it will be easier. Maybe.